Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Timid Boys Home Visit 2 Retrospective

Again, I fail to keep a decent schedule.  It's actually not so much that I'm not writing, I am, it's that I'm not releasing. Maybe I should go back to my old retrospective pattern of not going through each page individually.  Maybe, maybe, not.  I guess I have been working on Taisen, though, so it's not all bad.
Taisen's almost ready for a compile and release.  I'm always really, really, nervous about releasing, though, because always, every single time, the only feedback I get is bug reports, and it makes the entire project look like some buggy mess, which it really isn't.  Most of the bugs are tiny, and not game-breaking at all.  It's annoying as hell to see nothing but bitching about a tiny little cosmetic thing that isn't even a real issue.  So far, I've been able to restrain myself from Phil-Fish style dickery, but it is still annoying.  The real issue is that I have no team, it's just me making these, and I only release them on chans, so there's nobody to test bugs, or even give feedback.  I bugtest as much as I can, but as the designer, I'm never going to be able to break the game the way that someone who's never seen it before can.  Also, there's little 'bugs' that I've noticed, and left in the game for gameplay reasons, so that the player will be able to complete all 3 faction arcs without actually raping anyone. 
Anyway, here's the next 4 on the Home Visit block.  There's 3 more in this block, before the Art Film. 

Great, my power just went out.  Fucking North Vegas.  A couple of days ago my water was out, and now my power's out.  Plus, there's a fucking pack of wild dogs that follow me whenever I go to take my trash to the perpetually overflowing dumpsters.  A couple days ago, one of the dogs bit/ripped a hole in my pants.  The weird thing is, I wasn't mad, or scared, or anything.  I just didn't care.  I still like it here, I guess, but there's a lot of little things that just remind me that I'm living in a 2nd/3rd world nation.  But at least the cigs are cheap. 


The sleepover page was originally going to be a picture of a young woman and a boy, clothed, waking up together.  I decided to change it to this one, because the first one had some kind of fantasy animal thing in it, and also, this one is lewd, and that one wasn't.  I'm trying to ramp up the porn in these, to match the increasing sexualization of the relationship. I really like that picture, though.

My power's back on.  Didn't take long, only about 20 minutes.  Still annoying.  And now the water's off.  This fucking place, man.

I like this page a lot, because it goes into some of the ways that the Lilians use the imperfections of the parents to get to the children.  That's a big part of the overall story, that the parents allow these things to happen by neglecting their kids.  There's also a bit of storytelling here, in the later bits.  The woman and boy cook dinner together, and then have some dessert, and retire to the couch for a makeout session, where they strip each other for their bath, and then snuggle, nude, all night long.  Or something along those lines.  It's up to the reader to create their own story, but I feel like what I wrote helps them to do that. 

The bathtime page is really nice, and I love what I did with it.  This is another one where I used a picture other than the one I had planned.  I was originally going to use this picture.  I changed it, mostly, because the boy looked like he wasn't really feeling it.  You see this a lot in /ss/ nonlewds.  The boy either looks like he's bored with the woman, or pissed off that she likes him, or like he's going to burst into tears at any second.  It's kind of annoying, because I can't really use pics like that, and there's tons of pics like that.  I had a couple more pics, but they were shower pics.  I might use them later. 

Water's back on.  I think the pumps went off with the power, so the pressure died for a little while.  I've started keeping a couple liters of bottled water around, so it's not a huge deal.  Everyone always forgets to prep water, but it's actually the easiest thing to prep, and one of the most important.

The text is where this page really shines, in my opinion.  I waste little time on setup, and have purely sexual content for much of the page.  After the second paragraph, I'm bouncing between fantasies, and guide content, with a roughly 50/50 split.  40/60 perhaps.  At any rate, I think it's a lot better than some of my other stuff.  The 'blindfolded rubdown' bit is particularly erotic, and almost deserves its own narrative. 

The next page features a picture that I edited to take a (stupid looking) boy out of.  It has the effect of giving me more space for the text.  I like the picture that I used here, and didn't really have any other ones in mind for this particular page.  In retrospect, without the boy, it just becomes a standard pinup girl pic, which I probably could have found many more of, but whatever.  The woman is milfy, and it fits.  This page is another one that is designed to get the viewer thinking about the wider concept.  That is, sitting on a couch watching TV with an older woman, stealing little peeks up her shirt or shorts.  Just a little addition to the overall (mental) story that the reader is building in his head. 

The next page, in retrospect, doesn't have that great of a picture.  I should have used a picture of a boy and a woman kissing in a forest or something, but I didn't have one handy, and didn't want to look for one.  SFW pics are actually quite difficult to find, especially ones of specific scenes.  And I'm definitely never going to commission anything for this.  Never ever ever.  The text is kind of throwaway as well.  I don't really need this page, but did want to cover kissing somewhere.  At the very least, though, this page does stress the importance of actually converting the boys to the Lilian faith.  A sexed up Jehovan boy is of no use to the Lilians, just like a celibate Lilian is of little use to the Jehovans.  This page also informs the reader of the importance that the Lilians place on nature, and ritual.  They're not too overbearing about it, but they do encourage their Nuns to do things in the 'traditional Lilian way'.  I considered having a little explanation, like, 'the plants transmit your sexual energy to LIlith more effectively' or something, but that would be far too esoteric, and this isn't the place for it.  At some point, I might do a full pamphlet on rituals, and their nuances.  But this is not that pamphlet, and so, the ritual stuff should take a backseat. 


That's the Timid Boys Home Visit 2 block done.  Next up is Video Ads 3, and then Hooker Birthday/Nun Lifestyle 3, and then Timid Boys Home Visit 1 Redux, which is the redone Home Visit intro, the intimacy page, and a 'sexual play' page.  At some point in between all that, I'll probably release Taisen, because I need to do that sooner, rather than later.  

I've started doing preliminary planning for Joobachi, mostly gameplay elements, and planning for maps.  I need to do these things first, and not do what I did with Gaiden/Taisen, just write whatever, and get what I get.  That leads to serious inconsistencies in basically everything.  I love Gaiden/Taisen, but I'll be the first to say that it's very much an experimental game, and probably more welcome in an 'outsider art' exhibit than anywhere else.  But, I like it, and apparently, other people do as well.


  1. I know it can be hard to do it, but having a team helps so much, even if it does delay things. I'm developing a niche game and just discovered your work, I think your writing is incredible and I'd be happy to help in any way if you wanted it, though my time is often wrapped up myself, I think game developers should stick together! I saw your stuff on 7chan, btw

    1. Yeah, I've worked with a small team before, it does help, even if it's just to have someone to run ideas past. There's not a whole lot of people that you can talk to about this sort of thing. Is a good email address? That site's totally in Japanese.